In 2012 I embarked on a journey with the Lord of healing—emotionally, physically and spiritually. The years that followed would prove the healing was taking place and reveal the internal soul work He was doing. (We overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the Word of our testimony…Revelation 12:11.)


The physical weight began to literally come off; I was healed from the inside out. Even though I was experiencing healing emotionally and spiritually, I was left with the reality of physical pain that would not go away.


I had to come to a place of resolve. What that resolve looked like for me was: the physical issues and pain I was and often still am experiencing may be like the Apostle Paul’s thorn in his side. This keeps me humble and in a place of expectant dependency. It does not define me!!! God does!


This thorn keeps me seeking His face, being filled with fullness of joy despite my circumstances, waiting to see and feel the healing I know I have already received.


I daily have to decide to live in a reality of A) feeling sorry for myself or B) rejoicing in the fact of my “nonetheless.” Jesus continually says to me, “Take up your mat and walk” (John 5.1-18). So, I keep walking, following Him with my mustard seed of faith!


We must maintain forward movement in walking with Jesus, allowing His Word to transform our thinking. These steps safeguard us from becoming emotionally, spiritually and physically paralyzed from self-destructive thoughts and self-pity.


I don’t know about you, but I still find myself asking God to see His healing manifest in my physical body, or for a deeper level of His mental and emotional healing. It is not a matter of someday I will be healed. It is shifting my thinking to the reality of Isaiah 53.5: By His stripes I AM HEALED!!!


A shift takes place in our spirits that, even if we have yet to experience the physical manifestation of our healing, transforms our thinking through His Word. What we see or do not see in the natural does not change the facts—”By His stripes we are healed.”


There is a scripture that resonates through the changing seasons of life that keeps me anchored: “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday today and forever” (Hebrews 13.8). No matter what life throws at us or how hard life’s storms blow us around, nothing can take us out if we are clinging to the One who was, and is and is to come. His grip on us is firm and secure. When doubt and fear creep in, remember, even the waves obeyed him (Matthew 8.24-27)!


May His steadfast love that never fails or changes anchor us in one of His this truths: He who began a good work in us will be faithful to complete it (Philippians 1.6).


If we are still waiting to see the physical manifestations of the healing—body, soul or spirit—may we remain confident in His presence, in His Word and expectantly filled with hope that He will fulfill His promises to us (Luke 1.45).


It is no long I who lives…but Christ lives in me (Galatians 2.20).



Leslie Yoder